Blog no. 11

He is the one who makes me feel so special.
He gives me butterflies every time we're together.
He is mine and I am his.
He is my knight-in-shining-armor.
My prince in my imagination.
My star who gives me light in my dark past.
The one I love the most.
The one who makes me smile all the time.
He is my friend.
My best friend.
My partner-in-crime.
He is the one who gives me warmth.
He is the one who gives me thrills and chills.
He is the one who gives me love.
He is my strength and my weakness.
He is my happy pill.
He is my everything.

But in a blink of an eye, everything was torn into pieces.
Everything has changed.
Everything turned up out of the blue.
And now,

He was the one who gave me butterflies.
He was my prince, my knight and my star who gave me light.
He was the one who made me feel so special.
He was my best friend and my partner-in-crime.
He was.
He was the one who gave me warmth.
He was the one who gave me love.
He was my strength.
He was mine and I was his.
He was my everything.
He was..

Hate

I hate the way you speak rudely to me, but that doesn't change the fact that you mean a lot to me. 
I hate the feeling of getting rejected by you, but always remember that the only one I love is you.
I hate the way you intrude my privacy. Can you just look into my heart instead and tell me what you see? 
I hate it everytime you lie to me, but don't worry because that wont change a thing to me.
I hate it when you keep on pushing me away but hey, my love for you will never fade away.
I hate the thought of you walking away. But I'll stay here and my love will remain.

....

Last month I've been thinking...

 "What if he doesn't REALLY like me?"

"Should I continue chasing him?"

"Will he able to notice my feelings for him just once?"

"Should I like another guy then stop fantasizing' him?"

"Do I even have a tiny-little-bit of chance to make him mine?"

But yesterday..

"Is this even real?"

"Am I dreaming?"

"Please don't wake me up"

"*SCREAMS*"

"OMIGASH I'M SOOOOW KENEKERLERG!!"

"He said 'Iloveyou' and that's a miracle."

This night..

"I don't care about what they'll say as long as I'm with you."

"That's why I love you soooooooooooooooooooo much"

"*hugs you tight*"

"*kisses you*"

"I'll treasure this moment harhar"

Maybe tomorrow..

"Will he never get tired of me?"

"Should I tell my parents? Ooops."

"Am I that clingggggy?"

"Is he getting embarassed of me?"

"Does he love me?"

Maybe next week..

"Did he had fun?"

"Am I that boring?"

"He loves me. And I know it."

"I'm not that bossy, right?"

Maybe next month..

"He knows that I love him that much right?"

"Do he still love me?"

"Should I end this?"

"Am I going to stay?"

"Stay or leave?"

"Love or pain?"

Maybe next year..

"I'll end this."

"He's such a dck."

"I don't deserve that guy."

"He's a jerk."

Maybe next next year..

"I'm just kiddin'"

"Who am I trying to fool? I love him sooo much even he is such a dckhead."

"I'll make him mine again even whatever it'll take."

Maybe after 10 years..

"I'm not regretting chasing him."

"I'll be his wife and the mother of our children."

"I'll make him happy."

"I  know that he loves me to eternity."

"We've been through a lot of challenges, and yet we're here facing it together without breaking apart."

"'Til death do us part"